Shogun Lee

Something is wrong with my laptop. It doesn't want to turn-off. It just goes on to logging off, but never really wanting to call it a day, and take a rest. I checked the performance and reliability monitor, and my CPU is effin' 59% busy with svchost.exe (whatever that means). Usually, my CPU is 97% free. Gademet. And this happened 3rd time already this year. Arg.

These days, I am a bit like my laptop. I stay up late, sometimes for a good reason, but sometimes too, it's just that I don't want to sleep yet. I dread it, wasting opportunities by sleeping. There are many things I need to do: articles to write, letters to write, plans to put in paper, staying on track with my medical education. There are many things I want to do: learn more guitar chords, relearn Japanese and improve on it, learn Spanish and go to Cuba for an elective, matter load on debate, organize my room, go sign up for gym, watch How I Met Your Mother and Big Bang Theory, level-up in mafia wars, and many many more.

Okay, stop over-thinking. Maybe I should try to get some sleep, now.

I still can't believe how fast it all went, but 4th year medicine is near over. There is still research defense tomorrow, and Art of Medicine Finals this Friday, comprehensive exam on next Friday. And oh yeah, the Med-Info elective project I need to finish with Agu. And the loooong due psych preceptorial about an interesting case of schizophrenia-paranoid type. Wait, bakit parang hindi pa near over?

But never mind. I feel happy and composed that everything seems to be doable, unlike the night before renal exam, when I feel like vomiting because I badly don't want to take the combined Digestive-Renal Finals exam (and I still can't memorize the cases which are nephrotic, nephritic, or nephrotic-nephritic). But it's all in the past. Wohoo. Just like Calculus. And Chem. Wow. I could swear I've periodically felt that I would fail. Pero I still survive. Yeah!

Tomorrow, it's Imed outing in Laguna! Yeah! And then Ilocos road trip with research group mates until Thursday.

Yikes, this means I need to finish the storyboard pala tonight for MedInfo. Babay!

PS. I am thinking of learning a new language this coming school term. Play more sports (the real thing, not just Wii). DO all the sts plans with Kevin, Cielo, Me-an, and Baoman. More Games Nights with Fred and Tricia. :D And many more!

What was the first motion that you ever debated in? As in yung first?
Arg. I can't remember. I think it was when I was probee debater in the Circle. Hindi ko talaga maalala.

What was the last motion naman?
BNPP motion. Bigay ni Aids. Estelle visited UPM and she was on the other room adjing too!

Who was your first ever debate partner in your first ever debate tournament? What was your team letter then?
Carol Tan. NDC 06. D?

Who was your last debate partner in your last debate tournament? What was your team letter then?
Carol Tan ulet. We were A.

Did you progress naman from your first tourney to the last? Or have you been consistently banban? Be honest.
Yuck. Sige, mas naging strategic I think. Pero there's always something you feel you could have said after a round.

Which format do you prefer? BP, Asians, or Australs? Bakit naman?
BP siguro. Effort masyado ang Asians! At mas fun kung maraming kalaban. Competitive!

What is your most memorable round so far in your debate career? Why?
Most memorable? Siguro PIDC 08 round 7. Estelle made us lose! *Hi Estelle.* At dahil dun, stress ang break night. At dahil gago si Aids, he hinted we won't break. And Yves goes, it's okay, you did what you could. Buti na lang may swerte pa rin sa mundo.

What was the hardest room that you've ever been in? Kamusta naman?
Semis NDC 08? Pakshet na Atheist motion. At grabe ang psych powers ni Jowee sa likod ni Joeven (the chair). With the head tilt, an eyebrow raised, and mouthing: eeeehhh?

Sinong gusto mong makadebate na hindi mo pa nadebate noon? Pwedeng present debater or one of the ancients. At Bakit?
Aloy-Aids-Yves team. Dati nanaginip ako na nag-iron man daw ako, solo vs Aloy-Aids-Yves. Tapos natalo ko sila. I woke up crying. Yuck!

May naging crush ka ba sa debate community?
Hehe.

Nagawa mo na bang pumunta sa isang tourney para lang masulyapan ang, at possibly makipaglandian sa, crush mo?
Para lang sa crush? Baka si Nicolo or Yves. Hehe. Debate ang motivation lagi. Hehe.

What was your most banban round ever? Anung kabanbanan ang ginawa mo?
Er, fine. NDC 08 semis. Eh kasi naman wala talaga kaming maisip na debate, kaya pinilit ang debate sa academe. Ayan, fail.

Do you have a debate grudge against someone?
Dati, oo. Sa adjes more in particular. Pero I realized may mga grepa talagang adjes, pero may mga adjes na tama din naman yung analysis, iba lang ang priorities at school of thought.

Debate Grudge against an institution?
Wala naman.

Weh, sinong debater ito?
Hehe.

At anong institution ito?
Hehe na rin.

Did you ever have an 'upset' moment? Pwedeng kayo ang na-upset o kayo ang nag-upset.
Does ANC Square-off count? Pakshet, hindi ako nanalo ever.

Was it justified naman ba?
Ayoko nang isipin. Stress.

Which is a perfect segue to my next question: Have you ever been adjed by a banban adj?
I guess. Dati, super hard feelings. Pero once you start adjing debates, marerealize mo na iba ang perspectives ng debater and ng adjes. Kaya in retrospect, baka bitter brat lang ako nun.

Pakiexplain. Anu pala ang ginawa niya sayo?
Not understanding the argument just because it was too brilliant. Yuck! May bitterness pa pala.

Personally, ano dapat ang gagawin sa mga banban na adj?
I-crucify! Hehe. Joke lang. Eh, i-train, i guess.

What was your favorite break night ever?
Hmmm... Sige na nga, PIDC 08. Kasi nga surprising break eto. In fairness, may value ang panggagago ni Aids.

And why?
Eh, naexplain ko na.

Do you have any debate ritual?
Besides the usual, varsity shout before a day's series of rounds, and the usual UPM themed shirts, may way din ako ng pagsusulat ng motions, rounds, and rooms (yuck, gaya-gaya).

Did it help you break naman?
Siguro.

Do you look forward to being an adjudicator once you graduate from your debate career?
Look forward? Siguro.

Have you ever debated oregon oxford?
Nope.

Kunwari tao si oregon oxford at si britparl. Anu kaya ang sasabihin ni britparl kai oregon oxford?
Sino ka?

May magic mirror at kaharap mo si parliamentary debating. Anu ang sasabihin mo sa kanya, bilang conclusion sa survey na ito?
Pakshet ka. Ninakaw mo ang mga hapon ko, summers ko, sembreaks ko, at minsan, christmas breaks ko. At weekends ko pa pala. Was it worth it? I don't know. I just remember how it feels to debate, and I remember feeling good.

This weekend deserves to be recorded in my online memory.

I am so thankful that Manila Intervarsity is finally over. Buti na lang masaya ang adj core, or else, i could not have survived the stress of life. Amazing Race.

Unang natanggal si Robin, hehe. He said he needed to finish the book he'll be submitting as thesis. Claire: "ako din naman ah! thesis deadline ko is monday!"

Thanks robin for being the decisive one. Lee: "Should we change the motion?" Claire: Whatever goes, alam mo naman ako, kiemer kiemer lang." Steph: "It depends on what is important?" Robin:"Stick tayo sa original motion." Thank you too for always placing second in earliest-person-in-meetings competition.

Second to quit out of the race is Claire. Dahil feeling niya wala na siyang value sa aking paningin, umuwi na lang siya at nag-thesis. Thank you for all the love you gave for MINT (in major levels)! Kahit iniwan mo kami ni Steph thinking kung fair ba ang theology-in-universities motion. I finally learned how to use the random function of excel, plus how to highlight cells using the keyboard (sorry, illiterate. Marunong naman akong mag-sort kaya may match-ups!)Sayang ang digmaang-bayan motion, panalo pa naman yun. Thanks Aids(na nanlibre ng dinner dahil nang-aaway siya at kailangan niyang magpakabait to make-up for it).

Finally, the winner. Thank you Steph for staying with me all through-out the tournament! I can sense the Carol-spirit in you, ICAns. Good luck with med school, UP Med is really nice (yuck! I can't believe I'm saying this.) Despite the stresses of exams (and the weird system to study for it), minus the sometimes irrational consultants and admin, UP Med is fun. :D

Quote for the weekend: "Kereh ito, kayang i-endeavor" (Jiao, 2009)- Claire habang naliligaw sa one-way streets sa Ermita.

Thank you too for the OrCom who channeled all powers and Karma in the world to make MINT a reality. Effort ang menial tasks! (See alvina_tiu's post for more details). We need more members next time! Ayoko nang mag-part sa assembly line ng kahit anong factory. Alvina, debater/tournament director/supreme overlord, I congratulate you.

Carol! Thanks for absorbing my stresses in life. Haha. If there's one good thing MINT has done, na-reset and body clock ko. Sleeping by 8pm (kasi I am effing terribly sleepless for 2 straight days!), and waking up at 4am! Cool. This is soooo important dahil ang naging panghapon ang pasok ko dahil sa Neuro. Welcome Ophtha.

Me-an, Nemo: SALAMAT!!!!! Ang cool ng videos. (May sinasabi si nicolo about sa content, pero I was so sabaw to understand him). Salamat sa pagtulong! And to Kevin and Ezee too!

To all the tanders, thank you for coming! Grabe ka Robin, bakit ka may ventus bag at teddy bear?!!!

Sana may next MINT! (At hindi nako mag-aadj core! Prowmeez)

Congratulations Class 2012! I can still feel the song even just from YouTube. Let's do it again next year!

As usual, my Thursday night was spent on reviewing for a Friday exam. I only had the opportunity to sleep properly (ie went to bed to take a power nap) by 6AM already. Joy would've wanted to go home a bit later, but I just can't take the 9AM exam without closing my eyes even just for a few hours.

I'm starting to love the Student's Lounge. It's becoming my tambayan not only during Thursday nights, but also whenever I need to stay away from the lures of my bed so I can finish a school requirement.

Last night, the usual crowd was there. Joy, in addition to the usual chips and junk foods, brought bread with cheese or corned beef for filling. Nemo had Oischi Pillows, and was just reviewing sample exams since he already finished reading the class transcriptions the other night. Bill brought chocolate mallows and puto seko. Bill won't be taking the exam since their Neuro exam is still on Monday, but he just wanted to savor the toxicity of the Gastrointestinal block. Kris was also there, making a transcription for the Neuro block. Ada, the fearless LO, was in a limbo of sleep and wake (I bet it's the GI stress. I'll never be an LO!) Miko was there too, but she was on the other table, doing a transcription too. I brought some chips and the weird Chinese jelly beans from Beijing, and as usual, wasn't even half-way with the required readings.

The exam was more difficult than the first one. Dr. Aguilar (?) was already at number 83 and I still need 15 points to pass! Apparently, she skipped 10 questions (which were relatively easier than the rest), so I luckily passed the second exam. Yay! I hope that means Goodbye for GI! (Ryan was saying that people with 20% or more absences will take the finals, but I never heard such a policy! I missed a whole Monday because of a Zamboanga debate cup, and around 5 morning lectures because, erm, they're too early. Plus dinners with the Circle ends by 11PM or so, so I sleep super late. Arg.)

Next module will be Renal. Upperclassmen say this is the last of the tough modules, and after that, we'll just be taking derma, optha, ortho, etc which are relatively easier. I can't wait for Dec 13! Last day of classes for this year. Grabe, almost a month of holiday break! Mwahahahaha!

I badly need this break. I didn't have a proper sem break because of the Davao and China events. More than that, this sem is just as stressing as the last!

Happy New Year Everyone!

It's exciting to hear that some old friends/classmates are planning to apply for med school!

Sana makapasa silang lahat! Can't wait to welcome them to UP.

You hurt (unknowingly, or knowingly, but you just don't care) the person you love, believing that the person you care for will understand. They do, most of the time. Because they too understand, most of the time. But they hurt too, most of the time.

But simple words of endearment will change all that. I don't get it either, but who understands love anyway?

I can't believe that they changed the cut-off grade, just like that! Dammit. Arg. I hate Epid.

I hate your inconsistency, your arbitrariness, your desire to make us suffer when we've set our sembreak to be free from your Final Exam. I hate you Epid.

Okay na ko sa Pharma eh, pero ikaw! Arg. I hate you Epid. (Puro angst.... Hahaha)

Yesterday was like a Friday night. I will not have a wednesday class because of the Ramadan holiday, and so I felt free that night.

I can't remember the last time I ran in the stairs to get to old neda conference room to debate, maybe when i was Minister for Legal Affairs pa. I liked debates, and I train as my default afterclass activity for the past three years. But last night was really different. I was really running in the stairs because I wanted to see my fellow debaters and be allocated in the debate training. I don't know why. Maybe it was just because the thought of doing nothing the next day makes you want to do things you enjoy doing.

Alvina, Keith, Dani, Romina Clare, Elmer, DS, Clarissa, RR, and later, RJ were there. We talked first about intramuros IV and about NDC, and then we debated on thw deny fertility assistance to the poor. I had vague memories of Aids and Yves PM-LO-ing this motion, and nobody has trained with it before, so that's what we debated eventually.

I needed to go early though because I need to meet my classmates by 7pm (but it was 7:30 already! Arg.)

Around 8pm, Ethel texted me if I'm still in Neda. Too bad I left already, we could've talked too about big questions in life. I hope Aids could drop by trainings too, but I know he's busy in IM... Maybe we should sched a active members vs alumni.

The first sem is about to end. I hope the Circle remains strong and happy. :D